Last Breath

Cedric passed away a couple of hours ago.  It was a rough hard time with Neena, Nan and I sitting in the room with him.  He's breathing was really rattly as if he had something stuck in his throat.  His breathing also quick.  For nearly 2 hours it lasted and we knew his heart wouldn't be able to handle it much longer.  Aunty came into the room as well but we knew needed to let her rest as well.

It was 1am when we called Steven (his son) to let him know that it was probably time.  Aunty, Neena and I sat in there room making Cedric more comfortable, well as comfortable as we could.  We sat him up which helped with the rattling in his chest and his throat and within minutes of siting him up he had taken his last breath.

In a way it was sad and we were all upset but at the same time we were also happy that he was now in a better place and that he wasn't suffering anymore.  I honestly think that he needed to be home with all of us and a place he was familiar in.  Things are still fresh and raw for everyone but no one seems to want to sleep right now.  I think it will be another long night but it's so nice that we are all here together.

Steven didn't make it on time as he lives quite far out but I'm glad that he came and still managed to see his Dad and have some time with him.  He and Aunty have been amazing.  Both still working full time and also going to the hospital everyday.  They've been each others rocks I think.  On top of that Steven's wife is also sick so he's having to cope and deal with that too.  Such a tough time for them all.

Best go and spend more time with the family.

Rough Night

Last night was a rough night for everyone.  Between Aunty, Neena, Nan and I we were all taking turns to sit up with Cedric. So many times he wanted to get out of bed and go to the toilet even though he had a catheter in and even though we tried to tell him over and over that he couldn't work and if he tried he would hurt himself. 

Poor thing.  He's also been talking to his "friends" more and more. Taking "food" from them and trying to eat it.  Well, at least to him he is eating it.  We took turns staying up as we knew today would be another night like last night.   Nan and Aunty Mina are sleeping while Neena and I sit here with Cedric watching him sleep and trying to keep him calm all at the same time.  His body doesn't seem to be failing or getting any weaker but we have been giving him more morphine on top; of the machine that gives him drugs to help with the pain.

He's happy to be home even though there are times when he asks where he is but I think he seems a lot more happier to be home with everyone.  Time will tell but for now it's a waiting game and just being here for Aunty and helping out as much as we can. 

Welcome Home

Cedric managed to pull through the night and he's on his way home, well at least later today. He along with everyone else is excited about that.  The last few weeks all he has wanted to do is come home.  We have some people coming in a couple of hours to drop a bed off and an ambulance will be bringing him home around lunchtime.

Nan and I have been getting everything ready for his welcome home.  I think more than anything if he does go it will be better to be home surrounded by family and somewhere where he is familiar with.  On top of that it helps with Aunty Mina not having to sit up and the hospital but rather be here at home where we can all be comfortable.  

Still makes me sad thinking about everything that is going on but happy that Cedric is coming home.

Whangarei

Really long day today.  Nan and I came to Whangarei as Cedric (her brother in law) has been sick and in hospital the last month and a bit.  Things are getting worse and looks as though he may not make it through the night.  We spent most of our day here at the hospital which has actually been really nice.  We've been here with Aunty Mina, Steve and Neena.  As sad as it is with everything going on it's really great to spend time with family.

Cedric didn't seem too bad today though as we all sat up at the hospital with him. He seemed to be his normal self even with his "friends" there that he had with him. Lol.  Who knows what will happen over the next few days but time will tell.  In the mean time make sure you tell the people you care about how much you love them. 

Oh and we totally ate KFC at the hospital lol!  Soo bad and soo good all at the same time lol.  Those poor patients having to smell KFC but after not eating all day we were all hungry. 

11pm Visits

Nan and I were sitting here watching some TV when someone (don't ask me who) just came over and dropped off some fish!  YUM!  I've said it before but love the perks of living here when everyone wants to bring you anything and everything!  Who doesn't LOVE fresh snapper!

Colposcopy what?!

With all of the surgery and issues I had going on way back when I missed out on my routine colposcopy appointment.  Soo Auckland sent me a letter wanting me to go to Kawakawa for the appointment instead this was in September.  Nan and I did the 45 minute drive only to get there and be told oh actually, we aren't going to do a colposcopy so will just do a smear.  Annoying when I could have gone to the Dr if I wanted to have a smear. 

Fast forward to today where I got a letter a little while back to say they had found low grade cancerous cells in  my smear and I needed to go for a colposcopy.  To say I was annoyed was an understatement, Had they have done the colposcopy back in September when they were told too I wouldn't have had to make another trip.  Oh well it's all done and dusted now and I even got an extra smear woo haha! 

Gotta love posts about medical things right??! 

Adele Carpool Karaoke

How amazing is +AdeleVEVO  seriously!!! LOVE this!

TM Update

I'm pretty excited to share my TM update.  I've been just a few days shy of 8 weeks and I've managed to get to 10 ad packs and 3 weeks earlier than I had planned.  Now I have the opportunity to be able to purchase 1 ad pack every 4/5 days.  I have a feeling 2016 is going to be amazing for TM!  Here's hoping.