Mom goes to the VR Dinosaur Museum

This is hilarious!  TOTALLLY love it!

Post Op

Long day today.  Early start with having to drive to Auckland to see the surgeon.  Good drive and not much traffic on the road.  We went the free route through Orewa which was a lot better a more nicer drive.

Appointment went well.  I need more surgery as looking down it's as if no surgery has been done at all.  I will go to Auckland every 2 weeks and have 4 sessions of where they will inject steroids directly into the scar tissue that is holding my vocal cords together.  It will be an intense few weeks but we are hoping that that gives better progress and more of a need for where I don't rely or need the trachy.  At the moment I am still 100% reliant on the trachy so hoping that it comes out or we get to a point where I don't have to rely on it as much as I do at the moment.

 It's really not attractive AT ALL but I thought I really want to take a photo of what my vocal cords look like.  Not good at all.  That small hole is where the air goes through to get into my lungs.  Well it would be if it weren't for the trachy that band underneath is the scar tissue that's holding my vocal cords together.

I'm not sure when it will be but I'm thinking it'll be a couple of months away until I see Jacqui again but we will see in the mean time I enjoy living life here in the far north middle of nowhere no mans land.

Smoked Fish

It was only 3 days ago that someone gave us seafood and today we were given freshly smoked mullet...I probably should have taken a photo before we ate it but Papa was too keen to eat it!  Soo good but I'm not sure all of this free food that people bring us is good for me... how am I meant to drop 20kgs when I'm eating food all the time.

In other news head to Auckland tomorrow to see what other options there are for surgery so here is hoping something good comes of the visit. 

Facebook

According to some random crazy FB app this is what my 2016 is GOING to look like... I would be happy if 2 of the 5 things come true!!  Still the year is only just getting started so who knows what will happen.

In other FB news I really like that they show you your memories.  This one popped up today of one of my BFF's and I after we hadn't seen each other in 2 years!  I LOVE that even though we haven't seen each other in 2 years we can still get together as if nothing has changed!  LOVE friends like that and I'm grateful for the few friends where we have relationships like that.

Low 80s

With all of the festive/new year celebrations now over it's time to try and get more serious with shifting some weight.  I've pretty much been stuck in the low 80's since forever now soo need to try and shift more weight. Or at least try and change up what I am eating because I'm not moving past the 80's just stuck.

Weigh in day though I don't expect to weigh in everyday or even every week just when I want to check up on how my progress is going.. even though I know you shouldn't go my numbers I just can't help myself but I am glad that I'm not one of those people who tend to get all sad sally if I go up or down a lot.  It happens but as long as you keep tying and you look and feel good who cares.  Wait, I care about the  numbers. lol.  My bad about the blurry photo and my feet haha!

Toheroa

I've said it before but one of the amazing things about living here in the far north is that EVERYONE wants to bring you food, mostly seafood but we are lucky that people love us (well my grandparents) enough that they want to bring seafood, vegetables, fruit or anything really to us. 

Today we got given some Toheroa.  They were MASSIVE and of course as is the case I had to take photos though Nan and Papa told me to hurry up as I was taking too long lol.  I didn't care though all I cared about was taking a photo or 3.

My 2016 Goals

  

With 2016 finally here it's time to make those pesky things we like to call Goals... though they say unless you write them down they're either dreams or they're not really going to happen.  Does it count as writing it down if I blog it out? 

No HUGE goals for me this year aside from these very few with a couple of them being ones I may not have any control over but I can only hope things progress. 

1.  Lose another 20kgs ( 44lbs)  give or take some here and there.
2. Have this trachy out or some sort of progress with what is going on and related to this hopefully get more assistance with/through another government agency and not the one I am currently with. 
3. Call and speak with my immediate family members at least once a month. 
4. Get TM going and have at least 10 referrals and 50 ad packs by the end of the year. 
5. Pay off more debt
6. Hopefully be earning enough money to live whether that's from TM or another source of income. 
7. Make more time for the friends/people I do have in my life who actually want to be a part of it

2016 can only get better and I am looking forward to seeing how it progresses.  I can't say right now how I think it will turn out but I can say all I hope is that it is an AMAZING one.

Happy New Year

Can't believe it's 2016!  Nan stayed a wake to see midnight with me but I did cheers to myself with my glass of wine. 

I have a feeling 2016 is going to be amazing and I  have a few plans/goals that I want to work on this year starting with my health... I need to get more into shape but those goals can wait for another day.

Even though 2015 wasn't a bad year I feel that 2016 is going to be the best year yet.  It's been a crazy last 4 years with a major life changing event happening in every year!  This year though my life changing event I want it to be AMAZING and not anything related to health, hospital, lose of a relationship, friends or anything like that! 

Things can only get better!  Let's go 2016!