4 Years

Thanks to FB another memory was shared to my timeline.  I can't believe how fast time has gone.  This photo was also 4 months shy of J and I separating and looking at this photo you can't even tell how sad I was/am.  I did an amazing job of hiding it at times but at the sametime I was soo lucky to have met Mel and Raya who helped keep my mind occupied and helped me to be able to get past J and the whole end of my marriage.  Where has the time gone?!?! 

Birthday

When you're told rather than asked that it's my birthday make me a cake you end up on cake duty for someone... really didn't mind and since they didn't care what cake they'd want and because I wasn't going to go to the supermarket that's a 1 hour round trip I ended up making banana cake icing it with fresh whipped cream and throwing on some Marshmallows to make the numbers. M&Ms would have been so much better but hey you can't be picky when you pretty much demand a cake now can you!  lol.  All in all a good day, great company and I think Reno had a great birthday.. so much so he wasn't even going to share his cake, instead he was going to take it home.  Ummm no way buddy you share that cake I slaved over the stove in the hot gross muggy weather to bake for you.

Juicing

Today I jumped on the juicing bandwagon and picked myself up a juicer... luckily it was only $30 as I have a feeling I may or may not juice as much as I would LOVE too hahah!  Don't want to doubt myself before I even start but after reading up all the great benefits of juicing I thought why not give it ago?  Picked up the Breville Juicer which apparently is meant to be good though I did read reviews that it was rather loud.  As long as it makes juice that's all I really care about.

Wish me luck!

Care Package

This morning I received a package from the amazing Claire at Dom's Kitchen and as soon as they arrived I really wanted to try them however they were solid  They are sample of The Good Stuff Coconut Butters in a mix of flavours.  HUGE fan of PB and Coconut soo why wouldn't I want to try these..  Can't wait!  Come on summer sun melt these babies so I can try them.

Brotherly Love

I miss out on sooo much being away from my family but I am always torn between whether or not I want to live here in the rural far north forever or move to be closer to family once I get better.

Love this video of  my niece and nephew and I can't wait to spend more time with them and see them again, hopefully I don't have to wait 5 million years to see them, on top of that my nephew will be here soon too so I need to make some sort of plan, even if only to visit.

Seriously though, how cute are they?

T.A.B

Ever since I was a kid Papa has always been a bet on the horses kind of man.  He's had big wins, small wins, lost his money most times and today he decided he wanted me to make an investment into his betting fund lol.  I only had $10 on me soo made an "investment" into his betting fund, actually both Nan and I made a $10 investment.  Couple of hours later Papa was headed off to town to cash in on his/our winnings.  My $10 investment made me a $90 profit!  Woop!  If I only had made a bigger investment haha. Such a gambler lol.

Quote

Such an amazing quote and right now in my life a quote that is 100% all of me and where my life is at, at the moment.  I really don't know where I am going but I'm grateful and lucky that I have a home and family who love me that help get me through the rough times.  Also big condolences to David's family (even though I don't know them)

One Year

It's crazy to think back to how this time last year we were enjoying our time together away up in Whatuwhiwhi.  It was one of the BEST holidays I have ever had and it's crazy how much things can and have changed in a year.  I don't regret any of it but it's sad at times to think that this is where or what my life is like at the moment, don't get me wrong I appreciate and LOVE all of the things I do have.   Home. Family. Handful of friends but sometimes I miss the life I had before all of this.  Sometimes even the people who I know part of me knows they're not good for me.

Time to move on and let the past be in the past and remember 2016 is FINALLY going to be MY year!