Not So Healthy Living

For those who have been following these last 2 nearly 3 weeks I've been focusing on my health. I had decided enough was enough and I needed to work more on my physical health.

Week 1 was amazing. I focused on getting good food into my body. I made sure to drink plenty of water and I made a conscious effort of what I should and shouldn't put into my body. I was losing weight feeling good and I couldn't wait to see how the next 11 weeks were going to go.

The start of week 2 was great. I had lost weight from eating healthier. My cravings were going away and cutting back on the alcohol was definitely helping in my journey.  A few days in I had hit a plateau. I was dealing with a lot of emotional issues and I went from not eating to wanting an alcoholic drink. The struggle was real. I spent the night in Auckland where the trip for the most part food was wasn't so bad. I'd had a shake, a salad but when it came to that night I pretty much ate my feelings.

A friend had come to visit while I was down and with the both of us hungry and her having had a bad emotional day with a family member and me still dealing with emotional issues we went with fast food. It wasn't the best and to be honest I was pretty hard on myself. I still am hard on myself.  Since then my eating hasn't been bad BUT it hasn't been the best it could have been. It actually wouldn't surprise me if this week I gain weight.

For me it's hard to focus on the good when I make those bad choices. It's hard to look at the whole picture. Instead of focusing on the way I'm feeling from eating healthy or the fact that in 18 days I've only made bad choices 2/3 times max. I still seem to focus on the well you've still made a bad choice option.

I'm putting this out there because I know that I'm not the only person who has a slip up. I'm not the first and I won't be the last. What I do know and what I need to remember is that just because we've made a bad choice it doesn't mean all the other hard work has gone down the drain. It doesn't mean we should give up. That one bad cookie, or chocolate bar or even that takeout pizza doesn't define us. It just means we have to jump back on and remember why we have started this journey. Where we are now and where we want to be.

I'm not perfect and I don't want people thinking, oh Teesh is focusing on her health and is eating 100% clean when the truth is I haven't been. I've got the next 9 weeks to focus on the goals I want to achieve and accomplish. I can do this and I can only hope that by sharing my journey with everyone it helps them to share and join in this journey with me.